hey jo,
sorry to hear about your kitty, hearing about the trip to the vet brought back memories of having to put sown my dog, cat and 2 ferrets, at different times. As much as you try to prepair for it, and as much as you convince yourself that it has to be done, its never easy, i compare it to losing a friend, sometimes i think that the only uncondidtional love that exists is between humans and animals.
I feel for you in yout time of greif,
take care
see ya soon
J